Author’s Note: I follow Anthony Baker at The Recovering Legalist and one of the comments in his latest post reminded me of this truth I received several years ago when I was asking the Lord if I couldn’t serve Him better if I didn’t have so much free will. It’s written as my question and His answer to my heart. If you haven’t checked out Anthony’s site, it’s well worth your time.
Father, so many times I make choices that may not be the ones you would have me make. I do things that aren’t pleasing to you, even while professing my sincere desire to please you. I get confused about how I can best serve you. It sometimes seems to me, Lord, that I’d rather be a puppet; not a real puppet, just a person completely controlled by you. I would be totally in your will at all times. I would never make a mistake if you were the one controlling me and my thoughts. Wouldn’t it have been better and so much easier to serve you, Lord, if I could have been like a puppet instead of a willful, confused, determined human with the ability to make so many mistakes?
Oh, my child! No, I don’t want “puppets” to follow me. I gave you a mind so you could learn of me. I gave you a heart so you could willingly give it back to me. I gave you choices so you can grow closer to me. I gave you free will, and I know, when you follow me, it’s because I called and you listened, not because it’s all you know how to do.
What joy is there in receiving love if it’s not freely and thoughtfully given? I want all of you—all you are and all you have to give. Each of my children is precious to me. Each one is peculiar, unique, and special. Would you have everyone be the same? No individual personality? No personal walk with me? I want each one of mine to be a total, whole person who chooses to follow me, not because there is no other choice, but because it is the only life-giving, hope fulfilling, joyful choice to make.
As you continue your path toward me, you will begin to comprehend the unconditional and perfect love I have for you. You will know I forgive your wrong choices and direct you back to me every time. You will know that we are connected, not by “puppet strings,” but by a bond much stronger. It’s a bond of love unlike anything this world can imagine; a bond you will one day fully understand.
Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. (Matthew 22:37 KJV)