I can thankfully say I have almost deleted the words Ajust a@ from my everyday vocabulary. You know, when people ask what I do and the words, Ajust a secretary@ or Ajust a homemaker@ fall from self-negating lips. Even my innermost thoughts often begin with Ajust a@ when I think of my achievements, or lack thereof.
It’s really difficult to pat myself on the back and recognize my own worth. It doesn’t register that my husband has truly loved me for many years, or that my grown sons sometimes still ask for my advice. The employer who has such confidence in my abilities that he continues to pay my salary, well… he couldn’t have a clue how many times I’m unsure of my work or how hard I struggle to maintain a professional calm.
I have always tried to do my best at whatever task I was given, but I don=t remember stopping to bask in the glory of a job well done, or truly accepting a heart-felt congratulations at face value. Sometimes I get so caught up in the striving that I forget to stop along the way and measure the distance I’ve come toward my goals.
Sometimes I remember that God did not create Ajust a@ person when He made each of us. He thought each of us valuable enough to give individual talents, gifts, ideas, thoughts, emotions and desires. He loved us enough to send His Son to save us. So, since God Himself loves each of us, perhaps it’s time we give thanks to Him as we learn to value ourselves, who we are and what we accomplish with His help. I once read, ABeing human is a privilege, not an excuse.@ Being Ajust a@ is not true, and maybe it’s a lack of faith in the awesome God who created us and continues to teach us as we walk with Him.
I wrote this several years ago at a time when I caught myself constantly putting myself down and lacking confidence. Thankfully, I don’t spend too much time now worrying how I “measure up” – I just trust that the Lord made me and He doesn’t make mistakes. As we seek His will, He’ll show each of us how to lovingly serve Him to the best of our ability. Yes, God is awesome, always!